In my bathroom mirror I feel
forty years old with my hair in
a pony tail and my make- up smeared
all across my eyes

Phil tells me:
You look like a suicide girl
which is like a goth scene-ster
but not so nineties
I think he likes my tattoos
but I'm not really sure
what to think anymore about
anything ever

I stare at myself and think of
how this guy will never ever be
interested in me and how

I don't know what I am supposed to be
and I wish that Bill Murray would come and tell me